"It’s a funny thing about life, once you begin to take note of the things you are grateful for, you begin to lose sight of the things that you lack." - Germany Kent
About three weeks ago when the whole lockdown was announced I was really putting pressure on myself to make sure I post at least one home workout video or do at least one live session a day to show positivity to my students and followers on my page. I always try to be positive and motivate people. Because of the difficult situation we are in right now, I put it in my head that I have to do it more than ever before.
After a couple of days, when I struggled with the internet connection during one live session I was teaching, I felt super anxious and I did not feel okay at that point. Obviously I wanted everything to work perfectly and smooth, so when this happened it really kicked off my anxiety…I was worried. Worried what if this virtual teaching isn’t going to work out, how long is this situation going to last for, are we all going to be ok, are we safe, am I doing enough for Nico’s education, am I doing enough for my business and my students??? These were just a few questions racing through my head…
The next day I woke up and decided I needed to do something about it. I knew if I continued putting so much pressure on myself, I would soon burnout. I decided to take a day off that day and just relax (relax my mind). All I did was chill in the garden, played games with Nico, listened to different inspirational podcasts, cooked nice lunch and dinner following the recipes I wanted to do for so long and that was it - no homeschool, no videos, no work, no pressure.
It’s amazing to spread positivity but when your feeling anxious it can be pretty hard.
As I mentioned above I listened to some amazing podcasts and very inspirational people that day and so many of them were actually talking about this topic. About how people are putting so much pressure on themselves in these strange times, which result in anxiety, panic and other emotions. It does not help, if anything it just makes things way more difficult and hence contra productive. I felt at ease knowing that it is all ok, that it is ok to feel this way. The most important thing for me was that it showed me I just needed to take a step back and re-connect with MYSELF. To find the balance and to realise that there is actually no pressure at all. I just had to get it out of my head, so I could enjoy everything - the homeschooling, the classes, the videos...
After that day, when the pressure that I created in my own head was gone, I instantly felt much better, I was full of energy again, I literally couldn’t wait to get back on the horse and I was more driven than ever. I continued to record videos, choreograph new dances, made more, exciting plans and made homeschool a lot of fun for both Nico and myself too. Thankfully I didn’t have a stumble since then. I enjoy every day, I’m extremely grateful for our health, for all the time I get to spend with Nico 1 on 1, for all the memories we get to make, all the fun we have, for all my amazing students who turn up to my virtual classes, for all my friends and family who check up on us, for this beautiful weather we are having and also for the 'slowing down' that probably a lot of us needed even though we didn’t know it. I now enjoy and look forward to every single class I teach and I feel blessed and lucky to still be able to do that. I would be lying if I said that going to a supermarket for food shopping or the whole 'not knowing' how long this whole situation is going to last for wasn’t giving me a bit of anxiety sometimes but I think it is ok.
𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵.
𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵.
𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘹𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵.
And know, if you are feeling this way - you are not alone.
I think the most important thing is to find your balance. Your NEW BALANCE that works for YOU and your family.
Make sure you look after yourself both physically and mentally and you find time to do YOU. Without self care, it is hard to function at your best. To prevent burnout and keep stress from taking over, we need to take the time to look after ourselves. May it be a nice walk, a meditation, a fitness class, a dance class or a quiet time reading your favourite book...
"An empty lantern provides no light. Self-care is the fuel that allows our light to shine brightly" - Uknown
Hopefully we will look back on these days as a time we pushed ourselves beyond our limits, and grew into stronger more positive people.
Let’s stay strong together. Strong mentally, emotionally, physically, socially. Let’s ask at least one person a day how they’re feeling and if they need a chat. I promise I’ll be here, dancing and teaching and smiling along with you-each step of the way.
If you know of anyone who you think could benefit from our dance classes, stretch or workout classes, make sure you point them my direction. We do a lot of free classes that are open to everyone and everyone is more than welcome to join us at any point.
We can do this!!! Vicky x